The internet is for porn AND self indulgent babble

I heard some wise words from a puppet this weekend. No, I wasn’t dropping acid. I went to see Avenue Q, which is a totally hilarious musical about post-college angst – starring puppets! To convince you of its relevance and wiseness, a clippet:

A mix tape.
He made a mix tape.
He was thinking of me,
Which shows he cares!
Sometimes when someone
Has a crush on you
They’ll make you a mix tape
To give you a clue.

See? Wise. Also:

Purpose,
It’s that little flame
that lights a fire
under your ass.

Purpose,
It keeps you going strong
like a car with a full tank of gas.
Everyone has a purpose,
So what’s mine?

Yes, indeed. Purpose. This puppet really made me think – what is my purpose? Perhaps I’m not missing the anticipating in my life, but the feeling of purpose that a clear goal on the horizon gives you. My purpose in life is pretty abstract right now – being a good partner, friend, daughter, and  employee and staying good to myself in the process. Jobs that are never complete. What a drag.

The puppets went on to convincingly explain that everyone’s a little bit racist, that if you were gay it’d be okay, and that the internet is for porn, and then proceeded to have loud puppet sex whilst claiming – and this is where we parted ways – that  ‘You can be as loud as/ The hell you want/ When you’re making love.’ As someone who used to share a very, very thin wall with a screeching woman I now suspect may have been a puppet, I have to strongly disagree. However, the puppets won me back by the end with a wonderful dose of reality, which is really all too rare in a musical (lyrics slightly shortened):

Maybe you’ll never find your purpose.
Lots of people don’t.

— But then- I don’t know why I’m even alive!

Well, who does, really?
Everyone’s a little bit unsatisfied.
Everyone goes ’round a little empty inside.

Take a breath,
Look around,
Swallow your pride,
For now…
Nothing lasts,
Life goes on,
Full of surprises.

You’ll be faced with problems of all shapes and sizes.
You’re going to have to make a few compromises…
For now…
But only for now!
For now we’re healthy.
For now we’re employed.
For now we’re happy…
If not overjoyed.

And we’ll accept the things we cannot avoid, for now…
Only for now!

For now there’s life!
For now there’s love!
For now there’s work!
For now there’s happiness!
For now there’s friendship!
Only for now!

Don’t stress,
Relax,
Let life roll off your backs
Except for death and paying taxes,
Everything in life is only for now!

Yeah it is only for now, and that’s  fucking scary! I walked out of the theater clutching John’s hand with a white-knuckle grip. Despite all my whining, I am really freaken grateful for where I am and everything I have. Like ridiculously, overwhelmingly, heart-burstingly grateful. Now my purpose seems a little less abstract: hang on to what I’ve got with a death grip! Oh, I mean, recognize that it’s a healthy and even necessary part of the human condition to feel a bit unfulfilled because it keeps you striving to be better, so just relax already and go buy a case of beer. Ok, so not all the puppets were wise.

Avenue Q – go see it.

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Posted on February 7, 2011, in Life and tagged , , . Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.

  1. used to share a wall with a screeching woman you now suspect was a puppet…and I just nodded and smiled because I KNOW.

  2. This was amazing and hilarious. It’s nice to have PERMISSION to be uncertain about our life’s purpose… even if the permission is coming from, uh, a puppet. Hold on tight indeed!

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